goddamn.. why cant i stop thinking about her.... on my mind everyother second.. i try not to call her.. but every inch of my being pulls me to call... but i resist... instead i sit.. and wait .. try and do things to get her off my mind.. its so hard.. losing... actually ... abandoning the one i love... im so stupid.. i belong with her.. but my head tells me other wise... i cannot be with her... i have to be with her.. god damn its so hard... why does she hold my heart... why do i love her so much.. sometimes it even hurts me..trying to resist her.. looking at her hardly.. thinkin about wat she's doing every minute.... fUK! hard times... pshh.. feelings.. psshhh... wats wrong with me.. is it cuz i made the wrong choice to break up with her... aaahhh ... damn it man.... wats going on here